As I lay in the dark
my mind begins to wander
Where does my future lie
I begin to ponder

Will I die alone?
with no one to mourn my passing
Will I find joy
or at a empty chance am I grasping

Loneliness is what I face
I fear it is my destiny
Sorrow is my friend
sadness gets the best of me

Do I just waste away
or end this misery myself
Will my world come crashing down
or will I play the hand I am dealt

I fear I haven't the strength
to play the the winning ace
my eyes are all blurry
from the tears that streak down my face

My blood freezes
from feeling absolutely nothing
then from in my chest
my heart ends it's wasted weak thumping

I leave my body now
and float to just above
I stare into my own eyes
which had never seen true love

My spirit wants to soar
but a dark force pulls me down
again I fill with dread
as I scream with out a sound

My spirit is consumed
by my tortured, anguished past
now my eyes go black
now, I am free... free at last.